Cody's Story My husband and I were overjoyed to learn that we were expecting our first child, in 1995. When we learned that child was indeed identical twin boys, we knew we were very blessed indeed. Plans and preparations were begun for our new lives as the parents of twins and I was feeling very special indeed. I felt like the luckiest person in the world to know I was about to have two adorable little boys to enjoy! Well an ultrasound at 20 weeks showed the start of an eleven week battle we were about to begin with Twin to Twin Transfusion Syndrome. We were told that our boys had a 10 percent chance at survival. We followed doctors orders to a tee, and I underwent weekly amniocentesis. Things went as well as could be expected. At 31 weeks our precious angels were born Caleb Lane weighing 4lb 12oz and our angel, Cody Patrick weighing in at 2lb 8oz. Both boys were in horrible shape, very premature and they both had underdeveloped lungs. Both were immediately placed on ventilators, Caleb faced an enlarged heart as well. Cody went home to Heaven at 3 days old. I held him in my arms as he took his last breath here on Earth. I felt at that very moment that my heart broke into. Caleb fought a long hard 6 and a 1/2 weeks in the NICU and after many ups and downs we got to bring him home. Today I am very happy to say he is a healthy and very happy 5 year old. I am so lucky to have the best husband in the world and my sweet Caleb, however I know that this awful pain in my heart will never ease or go away until I see my sweet Cody again. I am so glad that he and Caleb are identical twins, at least everytime I look at Caleb I know what Cody would look like now. It's so hard not to have him here, I wonder what he would like to do, what would his favorite book be, what snack would he like best. I wonder how his voice would sound when he says I love you mommy. Would he love cars and music like his brother, or would he be my little artist or athlete. I'll never know the answer to these questions, until one sweet day when I see him in Heaven. I feel him at times, I know he's watching over us and taking care of his brother. I also know those 3 days I had with him have left an unforgettable impact of my life and the lives of many others. I heard the quote "He gave so much to be so little, but angels always do". I know he was an angel and I am a better person for having known him. I also know that I miss him terribly and I probably always will. We send up balloons every birthday with a message to him. I just hope he knows how very much he is loved and missed. We go on without him, for I know that's what he would want. But he will always be a part of our lives and he will ALWAYS be remembered and thought of with love. I will always be the mother of twins and my sweet Cody will never, EVER be forgotten. It's kind of like the song The Dance by Garth Brooks. I'm glad I didn't know how quickly he'd be gone from my life because, then I'd have missed all the joy and wonder. Cody, honey you're missed every second of every minute of every hour of every day. All my love, Mommy Cody if you're looking down on us from your home above, know that you couldn't be more missed or more loved. Your mom, Stephanie, dad, Danny, and twin brother Caleb.